Knowing someone is listening to what I have to say frightens me.
Maybe it's because I'm not use to it.
When they are looking you straight in the eyes and you are looking back, makes my nerves twirl.
Even though I know it is respect on doing so, it was still unsettling.
That's why I never thought I could do acting.
I had so much passion for it though.
I use to go into the Theater room when no one was around and just picture what it would be like on stage.
I would stand there in the middle of the stage and "act" like all eyes were on me.
Pretty crazy, right?
Eventually I grew a pair and found a place where I was comfortable.
I use to work for this company, Silent Edge Entertainment.
They owned a building called the Nightmare Factory.
It was basically a haunted house ordeal.
Except they tweaked it a little.
There were 5 different buildings, each one was a different setting.
& to go off subject a little bit...
Two men had actually died inside the biggest building.
They were beaten to death, and no one ever found out who or why.
My intentions were to not work inside of that building.
At first they placed me in the exact spot of where they had passed.
Instead of doing by best, I did my worst.
I did so horribly they asked me to pick out where I felt more like "myself" at.
I put myself outside.
I wanted to entertain the crowd.
Which meant I had to be a "hype" character.
When they are spraying the make up all over you, excitement rolls through my veins.
It's like you are transforming into someone different.
Someone with a confidence boost.
No one knows who you are, you can act how you want and people love you.
My transformation made me a star in this little group of drama.
In the end I won over my stage fright as well as Best Actress for their Machete Awards.
If you are to frightened to be yourself on stage, try thinking you're someone else. (;